kekalahan liverpool~

adess..mata ni seakan xnk terpejam.padahal esok pg2 dh ade class.terpaksa melayan kuiz2 fb yang bengong itu.huhuhu~smbil menunggu si dia yang janji nk call back after sahur.sonok jugak bile ade tmpat utk bermanja ni.kdg2 rase disygi dan di hargai after harga diri i dipijak sesuka hati oleh si mangkuk hayun itu!hahaha~jahatnye statement itu..tapi xkisah la org nk ckp i baik ke jahat ke..org bukan taw ape yg terjadi pada hati ini kan??dah cukup baik la i ni sbb sanggup be friend ngn org yg betray my trust.ntahla..

ade kwn2 ckp>>

loorr..kenapa kau ni lembut hati sgt nk kawan lagi dgn die tu?ko xingat ke ape yg penah die buat kat ko?aku xrestu la.jgn kwn lagi dengan jantan tak guna mcm tu!!

ada jugak yang cakap cmni>>

u so tough dear.kalo aku jd ko,dh lame dok tanjung rambutan taw~respect la kat ko!

hurm..byk lg comment yg i penah dgr.thanks..thanks 4 all the compliment!yup,im tough,im strong yet i still have a very rational brain.rasenye xgune meratap pilu utk org2 yang tak gune sebegitu.dan rasenye juga xperlu membenci seseorg sbb bile kite benci seseorang,kite sbenarnya masih lg menyayanginya.

so, let it go coz what goes around comes around.bkn minta yg tak baik utk die tapi setiap yg terjadi kan ade hikmahnya.

hikmahnya adalah i semakin menghargai diri sendiri lebih dari orang lain.yup!to tell u the truth, i mmg pernah sayang die lebih dr segala-galanya.even more than myself.maybe tuhan nk tunjuk tindakan i tu salah kot.so die bg pengajaran melalui pengalaman ni.

and to the gurl outside yg meroyan kalo ptus cinta tu,fikir la guna otak bukan gune perasaan.xdinafikan,i pon meroyan jgk.lala n some of my fren adalah saksinya.huhuhu..tp ckupla i meroyan sekejap je.pastu start a new life with a new hope!jgn biarkan diri anda terseksa dan merana sedangkan dia sedap2 je gembira!u should be happy too~

opss..to liverpool fan,ape maw jadi ngn club kite ni??ngn aston villa pon leh bungkus..bercita2 menukar club lain tapi nk masuk club ape ek??huhuhu~

merajuk best jgk~

my heart that never ever been heal again~let it remain like this 4 eva!

hurm..

dah lame xrase perasaan ni..nk taw perasaan ape?perasaan merajuk la.huhuhu..sejak berstatus single mingle ni..xde tmpt nk merajuk2 ni..tp sejak punye scandal..(astaga..ape punye gedikx daa~)dh dapat rase blk perasaan tu.tp mcm xbesh je kan coz kalo skandalicious ade depan mata ni leh dpt mcm2.coklat ke..teddy bear ke..ni skadar dpt sms sory plus misskol yg beribu kali watpe.at last dpt topup free je..hahahha..topup pon topup la..leh msg ngn kwn2 lain.huhu..am i bad??



yezza>>>>life makes me become like this.don't blame me.blame the life that alwayz be unfair to me!!

hatiku gundah gulana~

mencintai seseorang tanpa dia tau aku pon mencintainya adalah satu perkara terburuk dalam hidup ini!

menyakiti hati si dia yang tercinta tanpa punya niat jua akhirnya memakan diri!

mengapa permainan ini memakan diri?

kenapa api ini menjadi lawan?

kala diri sedang hanyut digelombang asmara..

tunjuk kan satu jalan

agar segala drama kehidupan ini berjaya diterima

walau rasanya umpama hempedu!

my confession!

whatever happen..whatever penipuan yang telah i buat,

but plezz remember that my love for u adalah sesuatu yang benar datang dari hati yg tulus!

im so sorry for what i have done!!

truly sorry~

fav song!~

"Could I Have This Kiss Forever"

Over and over I look in your eyes

you are all I desire

you have captured me

I want to hold youI

want to be close to you

I never want to let go

i wish that this night would never end

I need to know

Could I hold you for for a lifetime

Could I look into your eyes

Could I have this night to share this night together

Could I hold you close beside me

Could I hold you for all time

Could I could I have this kiss forever

Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

Over and over I've dreamed of this night

Now you're here by my side

You are next to me

I want to hold you and touch you taste you

And make you want no one but me

I wish that this kiss could never end

oh baby please

Could I hold you for a lifetime

Could I look into your eyes

Could I have this night to share this night together

Could I hold you close beside me

Could I hold you for all time

Could I could I have this kiss forever

Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

I don't want any night to go by

Without you by my side

I just want all my days

Spent being next to you

Lived for just loving you

And baby, oh by the way

Could I hold you for a lifetime

Could I look into your eyes

Could I have this night to share this night together

Could I hold you close beside me

Could I hold you for all time

Could I have this kiss forever

Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

reunion uitm kedah yg sgt menghepikan~

hye peeps..

begitu lama i x update my blog ni kan.huhuhu..well..as usual,tiada apa yg menarik terjadi dlm idop i ni..but lately,hati ini berbunga riang.hah?why erk??

huhuhu..ntahla..tibe2 hati ni tersuka kepada seseorang yg i sendiri xsangka.>>>

aiyoo..pasti ramai org pk..budak ni gile pe..br pas frust,dh suke sumone plak?murahnye cinta dia~~


lantak la ape org nk ckp..tp i xtaw cmne nk gmbrkan hati dan perasaan ini.suka ke?syg ke?cinta ke?i sendiri xpasti dgn hati ini.but why i sng sgt fall in love with him ek??

hurmm..bcoz setakat ini,he's the only man yg i jumpe sgt2 memenuhi cita rase i.hahahaha..ops..im not demanding tp i punye ciri2 lelaki idaman ade 3 je..n what is that??

1. romantik (die sgt romantik.he always play love song yg secara sgt2 kebetulan adelah my fav song too,he know how to treat me as what i want,he makes me smile whenever im down,he never over the limit..he;s very understanding,he so matured but not look so old..he..he..he....byk sgt he ni.siapakah die?hahaha)
2. berterus terang (this is what i like bout him.die ni sentiasa bertrus trg dengan ape yg die buat.even die sgp cite sume keburukkan die tanpa segan silu.hah??leh ke lelaki lain wat cmni kalo nk takle awek?leh ke?msti xleh kan?msti nk cite yg baik2 je..msti nk cover ensem je..)
   
3. manja n gentleman(huhuhu..pelik kan?nape i suke org manja ek?cmni la..actually,i pon agak manja orgnya.hahaha..n that's why i pon kene cr org yg manja.coz they know how to memanjakan i.kehkehkeh..tp serius,die ni sgt gentleman.die slalu wat i terkedu krn 'kegentlemanan' die tu.serius..kdg2 terpikir,ade lg mamat cmni kat dunia ni.ingat dh pupus dh.hahaha)

ha,sng kan ciri2 lelaki idaman i.xpyh yg beriman la,yg hensem la,yg kaya la.itu sume xpenting.what i learn through my experience ni..lelaki sgt cepat utk berubah.so i guess,hal2 yg berkaitan iman n agama ni so subjective.smpai waktunya nnt,die sendiri leh pk n cari agama tu blk.

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hurm..sgt hepi dgn kehadiran die tp dlm mase yg sama,im so sad sbb melayan die sebegitu rupa.adoiii...too many cabaran dan halangan utk bersama die.n im really sure that it is so impossible for me to be with him.sdey bangat~

xdpt nk membygkan hari2 mendatang tanpa mendengar suara die,tanpa sweet msg from him,tanpa kata2 nasihat n gelak ketawa die..sdey la..im going to die again~

i menyesal bermain dgn api.skang ni..api tu mcm nk bakar i plak.aduss..napela idop ni penuh ngn segala mslh yg menyakitkan??

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ok,ttup kisah hati dan perasaan..let's talk about yesterday yg sgt hepi!huhuhu..we (i,lala,cik qaqa,ann junior n farra) kuar berhibur di bandar melaka.mula2 pk cm mls nk kuar.tetibe bdk2 ni ajak plak.hmm..g je la.naseb nek keta..xdelah sush2 nk tggu bus lg.we going out around 3.30pm n reached mp dlm pkul 4 sbb punyelah ktrg tawaf 1 melaka hanya utk mencari se lot parking utk keta kancil merah cik da shidah (tq sbb taja keta utk ktrg..hahaha)..dhla masing2 pnye perut berkeroncong gile.dapat parking terus g mkn.huhuhu..i kongsi sepinggan mihun goreng yg sedap dgn cik lala tp unfortunately,tetap xabis.hahaha..lala on diet so xleh mkn byk2 while me..i dun have appetite to eat lor.cume nk mkn sesudu 2 je.hahaha..tapi quite mahal la kat situ.farra mkn nasi with sepotong ikan parang kene RM7.gempak kan??hahaha..naseb ptptn byk membantu dari segi kewangan.hahaha..

lepas mkn,we going to dataran pahlawan sbb masing2 dah gedik2 santai nk tgk movie the proposal.we met ameerzzz kat DT n bergegas naik ke tgv (amboi..bergegas tu..takut tiket penuh).so we got the tiket n watch the movie..

let me review the movie.the proposal was DAMN great movie!gile la.sgt kelakar sampai rasenye i gelak xhengat dunia pnye.mcm rasenye panggung tu kedengaran hilaian tawa i je..hikhikhik..tapi the romantic part paling mengujakan!uwaaaaa....really need a guy like andrew!!!jln cite yg sgt bagus n digarap dgn baik n xboring n best sgtla.so i suggest sume sila la menonton the proposal secepat yg mungkin.tapi kalo best, g la pasangan anda!rasenye lebih sesuai kot..mcm org2 yg xde psgn ni..g jela ngn kwn2.huhuhu..

ermm..abis tgk wayg,ktrg pon g MP lak.masing2 dah gedix nk melalak plak.tapi bfore dapat g tmpat melalak,terpaksa tempuhi ribuan org kat pc fair yg rmai bangat.hurm..scenerio baru yg i nmpak..masing2 dh xsegan silu utk memakai mask utk prevent dr h1n1.bdak2 ni pon same.bgai nk rak pkai.i je yg xde mask tu.rasenye xperlu kot pkai benda tu.nnt terlindungla muka glamer i ni.hahahaahahahah...(i sudah mule memerasankan diri..)

melalak punye melalak,xsedar dh 2jam berlalu.kitrg pon kuar la dr bilik no 6 tu.huhuhu..masing puas hati ngn persembahan.hahahaha..wlaupon suara aku sumbang mambang..janji puas dapat jerit2.antara lagu2 nyanyian td:

1. kesal by ella
2. mengapa by nicky astria
3. ku pendam sebuah duka by khadijah ibrahim
4. tak tercapai akalmu by elyana
5. pudar by rossa
6. i will survive by gloria gaynor

ntah..dah xingat dah.tp kalo tgk2 blk..sume lgu tu org frust bercinta.hahaha..mmg pon.so what?saje je nk nyanyi.slh ke?yg bdk2 ni plak..suke betul nk kenekan i..sabor jela.hhahaahha..naseb i ni baik..kalo x,dh lame suh dorg wat cam tarian annie yg dlm cite the proposal tuh.hahahaha..

lepas melalak,ktrg pon trus g mkn kat sbleh hotel bayview.spt biase..mknan i mmg xkn abes punye.naseb ade bdk2 yg bertangki XXL tlong abiskan.hahahaha..jgn mrh ek..ha,tmpat seterusnya adalah sgt mengujakan.ktrg g tgk air panjut yg sgt unik.air panjut tu die ikut alunan lagu yg dimainkan.sgt cantik n fantastic smpi i ternganga2 tgk.serius..sila la berkunjung ke tmpt tu.tp xtaw ape nama die..

ha..destinasi setrusnya adalah mydin bazar 24hours.hahaha..bdk2 ni nk bli brg umah plk.layankan jela.tibe2 ati ni tersentuh.since bkk sem ni..xpenah lg g mydin or tesco utk bli brg2 umah.hmm...dh,jgn lyn emo.kang melalak plak lg..

lepas beli brg..ktrg menghala ke pantai puteri!!yeahhhhhhh...ni la tmpat yg i plg suka.well..im a beach gurl..(not bitch ok!!).ramai org spjg pantai tu.tapi xkire la..i nk lepaskan sumenya pada laut.oh laut..dengarkan luahan hatiku~

angin malam..sampaikan salam rinduku pada dia~



about 20 min dok kat tepi pantai smbil menghirup udara segar telah membuang separuh rase lelah dlm hati ni.pas tu,ktrg pon menuju jalan pulang ke sarang orchard..pulang dgn bdn yg penat tapi hati yg girang!yeahhh....

k la..see u next tyme!tatatititutu~

skrip 7707~

hi peeps..

im here again..

lalalala...rase senang sgt hati ni..xtau nape.kehkehkeh..mmg la senang hati.pagi tadi skip clas..hahaha..suke ati je kan..rase mcm dah kembali ke zaman diploma kat kedah dulu.suka sgt xdtg kelas..last2 result melingkup.

oppsss------------>>

no..no..no...

xmungkin i akan melingkupkan result utk degree ini.this is my last sem..so i wanna keep my result as good as i wish..cume perlu tambah 0.05 jer utk i lulus dengan cemerlang.hey peeps out there..plezz pray for me yar!

hmm..petang kang nk g nonton wayang sama teman2 gue..cite ape??hahahaha..dah la penakut tahap gaban..ade hati nak tengok cite skrip 7707.ala..cite antu terbaru tu..smlm i ask my classmate, wani...ajak die g skali..i text her la..

i : oitss..jom tgk skrip nk x?

wani : aiyoo...already tgk la..sowi..

i : how's the movie?

wani : thumbs up!terbaik dowh..

tetibe i rase kecut2 perut plak nk g tgk..i ni species yg penakut tahap gaban and for sure japg kalo i jd tgk cite ni..bahu paah akan menjadi mangsa..kehkehkeh..bersiap sedia la sis..dengarla jeritan batinku jap g...

hurm..lately,financial status xbrape nk terbaik la..skejap je dah surut duit dalam bank.nk mintak MBF a.k.a mak bapak finance...cam xsampai ati plak.huhuhu..xpela..i cut my food la..lagipon memang i dah xmkn sangat skang.biase la..skang ni i tgh dalam rejim diet..so far..dah 10 kg berat i turun since last 2 month after suffered a lot!huhuhu..i dah target nk berat 54kg and need to cut another few kgs.pastu baru la dapat berat idaman.tapi tu la..dah lama xg jog.dulu..every evening g jog along sungai melaka yg mempunyai scenery yg sangat nyaman.tapi sem ni i still xpkai lg my sport shoes.huhuhu..

hurmmm...i ingat japg nk cari iron rambut..since i do rebonding last 2 weeks, xpernah iron lg.my housemates dah tegur rambut i ade bekas2 ikat rambut.kehkehkeh..malas betul nk jaga.dulu beria sgt nk rebonding..some people ask me..do u want to free hair??

i answered.."definitely NO!"

people xpaham taw..kdg2,we do something bukan nk tunjuk2 kat orang..we do it for kepuasan diri..even i jenis bertudung tapi ape slhnya i nk rebonding pon kan??kan??kan??i already put some colour to my hair but so far..hanya housemates and family je dah tgk..mase 1st time mummy ngn daddy cool tgk..dorg mengucap panjang.siap complaint kate xcantik la..xsesuai la..the one before is much better la..well..sebab dah dilahirkan degil dan xdgr cakap..i pekakkan je telinga.lagipon..i buat ni pon gune duit gaji i mase wat part time job last holiday..

lawak gile mase kenduri aritu..my besh friend,cik hazwani datang and 1st time see me with new hair..die gelak giler2 baby!

i : aii..melampau gile ko gelak.apehal?huduh sgt ke rambut aku ni?

wani : bukan la wei..nampak giler ar ayu..dah hilang kebrutallan ko..hahaha..(continue gelak

tanpa menghiraukan tetamu yang memandang..)
i : ala..skali skala tukar image pe slhnye..cantik ke?huhuhu

wani : cantik ar..nampak ayu giler wei..serius ni.bkn nk bodek..



hihihih..nmpaknye ade gak respon positif tapi i perasan..org yg bg respon negative ni org2 tua.like my parent..my nanny..tapi my aunty n uncle,cousin..sume bg komen positif.nampak muda la..sweet la..cute la..hahahaha..perasaan plak aku ni!!bukan nk berlagak...tp ni yg dorg ckp..i kene la tulis..kehkehkeh..

tapi paling besh mase i approach my sweet cousin yg berumur 2 tahun.nama die dhania..she is a die hard fan of upin n ipin...selalunye,dhania akan panggil i kaklong gemuk..tapi when i approach her that nite..she call me kak long comel sambil tangan die main rambut i.hahahaha...

ape moral of the story??>>>

moral of the story..budak2 xpandai nk menipu.so accept jela what she said.kahkahkah...

wah..ni dah mcm riak ni...astaga..cik aimi nadiah..sile kembali ke dunia yang nyata.well..for me..cantik luaran tiada maknanya..walaupon sume org ckp kite cantik skalipon...tapi kalo hati buruk n xcantik,apelah maknanya kan??some people ask me...ko berubah ni nak attract guys ke as i pon dah solo skang..

my answer-------------->"nope!i just doing it utk kepuasan diri sendiri.."

x di nafikan...since solo ni,ade gak lelaki2 yg cube menagih cinta dari i.but for this time being..im so trauma to love and be loved again!gila trauma..even sampai i xleh nk percaya any single word said by men.aduii...i know,1 hari nnt,i kene kawin pon ngn lelaki tapi rasenye skang ni malas kot nk pk..bagi seekor burung yang baru jatuh dari dahan yang rapuh dan patah sayapnya...die nk terbang setinggi yang boleh membelah awan bebas di angkasa..and when the time die penat dan lelah...die akan kembali berpaut pada dahan yang kuat agar die xjatuh lg..and it same goes to me..i wanna fly high..freedom...but at one time nanti,i akan kembali turun berpaut pada seseorang yang InsyaAllah,will take a gud care of me..n i hoping so!

skang...hati ni dah berkecai..mcm kaca yang jatuh di lantai..mungkin mengambil mase utk mencantumkannya kembali..

k la..nk blk..xsbr nk g pahlawan mall..tgk skrip 7707.kalo nk taw pasal cite ni..c u tomorrow~

tatatititutu~

men alwayzzzz like that!

hi peeps,

today emosi agak terganggu after received myspace message from somebody.aduii..kenape la agak sukar nak get rid all this thing from my life?tertekan betul la..apepon..life must goes on kan??walaupon payah..terpaksa la i harungi segala dugaan ni.most important thing, i believe this is the best ever gift from Allah coz i know Allah loves me.that's why Allah uji i sebegini berat.and as hamba yang sgt kerdil lagi hina...i should gone through all this with patient and hoping that this will be ok soon.tapi i sangat wondering..begitu cepat he change his love and forget all the memories that we've created together for the past 4 years?mcm tu skali..senang sgt bg die.all men are like this ke??maybe because of less emotional kot..that why they easily change.opss..sorry to men outside who read my blog.this is what im going through.my experience.but i admit ade gak women yg wat cmni...so it is like fair and square la.

hurmm...dah mlas nk pk bende sedih2 ni..what past is past.i will never look back.huhuhu..all my friends say i ni kuat.im a strong women.im not even crying when i know that he have another gurl in his life. well,i don't know where this strength comes from.it just me myself who develop a strong wall between me n him after all this happened.why should i cry?it never benefited me as well. i don't even hope that he will come back to me.buat ape kan?once he can do it,he can do it another times.plus,i think im deserve a good man rather than him.for me,he is just a piece of shit!hihihi...(berbakul2 aku nyumpah..but i think he deserve it!kehkehkeh)

so, i hope sape2 yg penah merasai pengalaman cam i ni,plez be strong.jgn mudah mengalah.the thing that u should think most is u urself.kite penat pk psal org len..tapi he/she not even think of us kan..lagi sedap enjoy ade la.so why should u let urself down and hurt?enjoy ur life..enjoy being with people who loves u and try to loves them.i admit, sometimes ade terkenang gak memories tu tapi cube utk x melayan sgt memories tu sume..it only kill u!

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huh!penat luahkan perasaan..jom kite cite pasal sweet things plak..hurmm...1st n foremost,i nk wish happy 23rd besday to my dear fren..shahrul amri a.k.a arm..(kekadang i panggil die nubhan.ekekeke..nk taw nape?cube tgk gmbr die ni ek..)

hah..same tak?mcm nubhan kan?kalo die wat muke elok skit,sejibik cam nubhan taw.die ni mmg org nogori tapi die slalu bg statement yg die xde kene mengena or having pertalian darah ngn nubhan pon.hahahaha..apepon..happy besday arm.hope ko success and happy with ur future life.may Allah bless u my friend!tapi tu la, dah la arini bday die...die plak demam teruk.

huh!H1N1 kah??

ntahla..ari ahad aritu dalam keta die ngn adek mmg nmpak cam agak letih.cian dorg..nasib baik g klinik smlm dorg dapat mc 2hari.beshnye...xpyh g kelas..huhuhuhu...tp mcm dok umah lg bosan jer...ekekekeke..

ok la peeps, byk sgt ngarut dah ni..msti agak bosan kan nk bc pjg2 ni..kehkehkeh..c u tomorrow..

tatatititutu~